Pending Changes
Restlessly I searched for her thousands, hundreds of ways.
Suddenly I turned, and there she was in the receding light.
There was a time in my life at which I gave up on love. Up until that point I had engaged in what I felt to be a normal love life– I had dated lots of girls, crushed on lots more, and had a handful of full-fledged girlfriends, but I had never fallen in love with anyone. Now, I do not mean to say that I ever made a conscious decision to “give up;” I did not leap to my feet one day and declare, “I give up on love!” or do anything dramatic of the sort. It was more as if I gradually resigned myself to the fact that I would probably never capture that elusive feeling called love. Without making an active decision to do so, and without even really realizing it at the time, I didn’t date anyone for nearly a year. I turned my focus instead to my own needs, friendships, and business concerns, and had a pretty successful, if celibate, time of things. Then I stepped into an elevator and met the girl with whom I would fall in love.
Somehow, more than six years have passed since I met Sue. Our relationship has been something of a storybook one, but we are about to face our first big challenge. For the next year, she is going to be living in Los Angeles. For my geographically-challenged readers, that is about 400 miles from where we currently live, and where I will remain. I have never been a part of a long-distance relationship before, and I don’t know what to expect. Our plan is to take things as they come, whatever that means.
In the meantime, here at last is a picture of the happy couple. For whatever reason, I have not shared many pictures of myself in this blog (and, before today, none of Sue) but this seems like the right time to finally acquiesce to the requests of more than a few readers.
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That was taken on Christmas Eve of last year. Regular readers will recall that as the date of a most exciting knife fight, chronicled here.
Also– no I do not wear a zoot suit on a daily basis. It is pure coincidence that in one of the only other pictures I have ever shared of myself here I am wearing the same ridiculous outfit. I swear.
Heart, Journal
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Life, Love, Melancholy
Long Distance is hard, but if anyone can make it is you and Fizzy– I’ve read back over some of what you’ve written over the years and if she feels half as strong as you do everything will work out okay.
Good luck with the change!
Where is the quote at the top of today’s journal from? Is that a song lyric? Where did you find it? I like it?
awwww cute pic!
@Miss Judithann, I don’t know much about the source for that. I read it years ago– it is part of a longer Chinese poem written perhaps a thousand years ago– and those lines made me think of when I first met Sue. They seemed appropriate to kick off today’s post.
Interesante. I got 63–same comment as you, same group. Maybe it’s an English major thing…
@Habitat Gurl, To give your comment some context, I took the “quirkyalone test” and it told me:
“How quirkyalone are you?
Your score was 68. Somewhat quirkyalone (otherwise known as quirkytogether):
You are probably part of a mysterious group of people, the quirkytogethers. You share many of our quirky qualities, but you manage to find yourself, on a regular basis, in a coupled situation. Interesting.”
We are both equally quirky!
too cute pic babe
its darlign i love it
leave me some lovage when u can ;)
much love
lylas always
ttyl :)
hey,
sweet~! you two look so cute….and I love the car in the picture too…. ^^
BTW, I am going back to Berkeley this summer for more school….maybe we can hang out sometimes if possible la…
ccc ^_^
cute pic!
hey, i’m going to taiwan and japan in one day. email me your address and i’ll send you a postcard if i can find a stamp there! =D
it takes a great deal of courage to love someone.
when you truly love someone, you put yourself in a very vulnerable position.
sometimes love hurts.
….but we can’t live without feeling this type of pain.
hey…. i know what u r going through right now. but just hang in there and be strong. and eventually the pain will ease. i know love sucks at times, but we all have been through it once in our lives b4 u can really find the right person for u. that who will love u back.
hey i know this seems like im some sort of spamming robot, but i just want u to check out my xanga ‘n see how to get a freeipod as well as help me get one…pleease take a look.
oh and happy easter!
u should write more stuff.
haha… ppl buggin about that? what gigs have u been djing recently?
Hey, wht’s up. Why i hiding out ?
P-Sprou Porridge. Feed me ! >;D -P
awsome xanga random props , beautiful wat u wrote